An anonymous writer who has an avatar of a bird carrying a book is based in Sydney, Australia Ranata Suzuki, through her words, has touched the minds of people all across the globe. An emotive expressionist with a poetic soul forms a sad yet beautiful world for all the broken souls who have suffered the pain of heartbreak and loss. Her words are simply excerpts from her journal, which took in the form of poetry and quotes across social media. The unique nature of her writing has to be her raw honesty which captivates one’s mind. Her words have the power to speak like the voice which is inside of our own hearts.
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Marking their debut in the world of literature was her book, “The Longest Night,” which comprises different sets of poems circling around the theme of heartbreak and loss. The book captures the journey of a mournful lover exploring the dark, painful, and heart-shattering beauty of love. The book is the perfect companion for someone who is about to embark on a journey of denial, pain, anger, depression, self-doubt, loneliness, and finally reaching its destination, which is acceptance.
If you are someone who is travelling on this road or you have finished your journey remember, you’re not alone. Each and everyone in this lifetime has the suffer through the pain of heartbreak in order to transform into a better and more mature person. So don’t feel lonely as you travel down the roads. Keep your eyes open, and you’ll discover many heartbroken souls who are wandering on this journey along with you.
To sooth your heart with some words, let’s take a look at some of the quotes written by the author for the damaged souls.
1. “I have grown used to the silence.
Accustomed to absence.
But I never let go of the thought that
you are with me, always.
You will always be where my heart calls home.” -Ranata Suzuki
The initial feeling of being in love is beautiful. Those butterflies we feel in your belly, those love songs that we listen to on the radio which constantly remind us about that special person, those small and silly moments that we spend with them become a nightmare when love decides to take everything away and leave you like an empty shell. The silence which used to destroy our minds slowly takes up its place in our minds.
The thought of letting go of the memories scares us as we are afraid to witness the same pain again. The heart, which was once filled with joy, is now filled with haunting memories from the past. No matter how much we grow apart from each other, at the end of the day, we will all come back to the place, going down memory lane while rejoicing, which was once regarded as our home.
2. “It is painful to be in love. One way or another, you’re always aching for something.” -Ranata Suzuki
Once you have experienced the dark side of being in love, things will not be the same anymore. You’ll always be cautious. Your mind is filled with self-doubt. No matter how much you try to convince yourself that this time things will not go downhill as they did in the past, your heart will always be in contempt. The need to be perfect will slowly make its way into the heart until it gets what it wants.
3. “We do not speak
But everything inside me is screaming
‘I love you,’ and it’s tearing me apart.” -Ranata Suzuki
The pain of heartbreak becomes even more intense when only one person has to suffer the entire damage caused by the actions of the other person. It breaks our heart to see them enjoying their life without any care, laughing and smiling while holding another person into their arms, while they completely forget about the suffering of another person whom they have left behind in their past.
The one who holds those thoughts inside their mind screams out in pain. They want to be happy as well. They want to move ahead from this pain that tears them apart. They battle through each and every stage of grief eventually leading their way to acceptance.
4. “I never knew the aftermath would be this painful.
I never knew that you miss someone with the same fervor with which you loved them.” -Ranata Suzuki
If only we knew the aftermath of love, would we still be brave enough to fall in love? How many of us are willing to pay the price that love holds? If you have loved someone with deep intensity and passion, you will experience the stages of grief intensely as well.
Everyone teaches us the beauty one falls in love with, but why do they hide the sorrow that love brings to each and every one of us? If you have shown the courage to be in love, then you must be ready to embrace the dark side of love as well.
5. “Meeting you was like finding the answer to a question I had long since forgotten asking.” -Ranata Suzuki
Throughout our life, we are surrounded by love that comes into our lives in different forms. We receive love from our family, friends, and pets, and despite all the love we have received, we would long for someone special in our life. And when you finally meet them in your life, you’ll be in a tranquil state as a nomad who has finally found a place that can be regarded as our home.
6. “And slowly, I came to realize I was empty without you…
That I had been before I met you and that I had become even more so when you left.
Except it was worse to be empty without you, because for the first time in my whole life
I knew that I was.” -Ranata Suzuki
We all are lonely souls walking in this world aimlessly, in search of someone who would gladly accept and embrace each side of our soul. Before meeting them, we all are accustomed to the way of loneliness. But once they enter into your life, you are introduced to other emotions as well.
Those emotions occupy a space in your heart that we soon forget the existence of bitter emotions. And what happens once they decide to leave? You’re empty all over again. The old emotions acquire the space all over again. This time you experience them more intensely as you have grown to live without them. It hits you way harder than it did before. And soon, you realize you’re all over empty again.
7. “I watched you leave…
I always watch you go.
It’s the repeating cycle of my life…
Me always being here and you always leaving.” -Ranata Suzuki
How do you explain the pain of letting your loved ones go away from you? No words can ever describe the pain one’s heart goes through at that point in time. You can feel every shred of your muscles tear apart on its own. Tears won’t stop pouring down your eyes as you wonder if it was easy for the other person to leave everything behind, as if it meant nothing to them.
Once again, when the heart has healed itself, the same pain would storm into their life, shattering the calmness and destroying the place, which took enormous patience as they all fell back into their place. The cycle of love entering and leaving would continue as long as the broken souls continue to suffer in silence.
8. “You were never truly mine.
But I will always be yours truly.” -Ranata Suzuki
To be someone’s everything means to offer each and every part of yourself. Whether it be physically, emotionally, or spiritually you have dedicated everything to that special person. Your day starts with their name and ends with their thoughts. You have accepted them entirely. As beautiful as it may sound, it comes with a heavy price as well. You no longer have control over your mind. Each and every action of yours is taken into consideration of other person’s feelings.
9. “If I could be happy without you the same way I was with you…don’t you think I’d be doing that?” -Ranata Suzuki
Happiness, when shared with someone multiple, spreads joy all across your mind. But what if this same happiness has to be shared without the presence of someone else? Would it still be the same? No, it wouldn’t. You won’t feel your happiness just like the way you did before.
Your heart will ache a little bit whenever you force yourself to smile. Each and every day, your heart will ache until one day, you won’t feel the ache anymore. You will live your life just the way it was dull, mundane, and empty.
10. “I miss the me I was with you.” -Ranata Suzuki
We all miss the part of ourselves that we once shared with our special someone. The joy that came from the happiness, the gratitude, the ecstasy that once our hearts felt seems like a part of a fairy tale. At the same time, the new version is more practical, realistic, and reserved.
You have experienced the pain and are now too cautious as to fall into the same trap. You are no longer swayed by fairy tales. You are now someone who is strong-willed and won’t offer her heart to anyone anymore.
11. “You’re gone. I know it.
I know it. And it kills me.” -Ranata Suzuki
Once you let go of the person whom you have loved with each and every bit of yourself, slowly and slowly, it will tear you apart. Every passing moment would feel like an eternity as you would long for them. Your longings would take the form of depression. You will fall into the pit hole of darkness where escape seems to be impossible.
You would wish for your life to end as quickly as possible. You will try every possible method to free your mind from the pain. And soon, you’ll be exhausted. Eventually, you will grow accustomed to the pain and sorrow, and one day you will finally accept the loss, and from that day, you will lead a life wearing the badge of your victory that you have gained from the battle of loneliness.
12. “But if we could have been together, what would there be to dream off?” -Ranata Suzuki
Have you ever wondered what the future would look like when both of us are together? Will it be happy just the way we are, or will it be sorrowful as time will create a gap between us? Will there be smiles all across our faces as we reside in each other’s arms? We would start our day and end it by being there for each other, or will it all just vanish away? What will our dreams be off? Will it be happy or filled with sorrow? Is it to grow old together or apart from each other?
13. “I write down what’s in my heart.
And it’s always you, you, you.” -Ranata Suzuki
As you deeply love someone, your mind is filled up with their thoughts. Even when you grow apart from each other, your heart will always belong to them. No matter how much you try to deny it, the heart will always be best for them as well.
14. “My house is where I live…
But home was in your eyes.” -Ranata Suzuki
One may ask, what is the difference between a house and a home? Well, to put it in simple words, a house is a place where your body resides, whereas a home is a place where your mind resides. As our mind endlessly roams across the universe in search of its home, and when one finally finds someone where your mind can call their home will always be the ultimate goal one could desire.
15. “I counted the hours.
Then the days. Then the weeks.
Then the months.
I don’t know if I have enough strength to count the years.” -Ranata Suzuki
As we become apart from our loved ones, deep down, we always hope for the day when we will be reunited. We start to count the hours, days, and weeks slowly progressing into the months. And as we come close to counting the years, we are in loss of our strength. We are afraid as the feeling of the unknown befalls us. The feeling of the unknown is the most dangerous feeling in this world because we are unable to make a decision for ourselves.
Whether we wait for that person or continue with our life continues to haunt our lives. The courageous ones wait patiently for the return of their loved ones, whereas the others continue with their life consoling their heart that the person was just a part of their journey.